A different day!

I decided yesterday that I wanted today to be different; I wanted it be calmer and to have a higher vibration to it, that’s the reason I visited the fairy cave yesterday, to shift the energy. 

 So I awoke early and went out for a walk on the cliffs to watch the sun rise. I was treated to the most amazing skies and the most beautiful bird song, all on my own too. There is something rather comforting and reassuring about seeing the sun rise, it’s the certainty I suppose, the fact that the sun will rise each day in the east, and set each day in the west, always has and always will, it’s the natural lore. It raises my energy too, to see the sun rise from the horizon. 

It’s comforting to know that we have the new moon tomorrow too, as this means that in a few days’ time, as long as it is clear, we should be able to see the sliver of the new moon in the night sky. I always find this really comforting and calming too, there’s something about the promise and the hope that the sliver brings that always makes me feel very alive on the inside. I miss the moon in this dark phase, so it was lovely to celebrate the sun instead!

I managed a quick high tide swim at Saints this early morning too, with the boys on the bike, and we had the whole beach to ourselves, which is always a treat. As I have written about before, there is something incredibly grounding, calming and uplifting about sea swimming – I’ve never once regretted a swim, nor E. It definitely gets you tingling and clears negativity. 

Back home and my ‘working’ day began with a children’s yoga class on Zoom. The majority of the children were genuine home-schoolers; I suspect their parents are the calmest of all parents on Guernsey at the moment! It’s lovely being able to share yoga this way, and to see some familiar faces, well done all you children. 

I then had a Vedic chant session with my teacher in the UK. Together we chanted a variety of mantra including the Gayatri mantra, one of the most ancient mantras known to man, said to purify the listener as well as the singer, and here in reverence to the light of the sun and to ask for clarity and strength. There is a reason that the ancients celebrated, prayed to, and honoured the sun and this mantra is sublime as those of you who chant it with me on retreat will know (with Deva Premal!). 

We chanted the Sava śānta too. This translates as “All is peace” and is a beautiful mantra, that we should probably all be chanting:

“May there be peace

Everywhere, at all levels of

Existence. In the sky, the wind, 

The moon, the stars, among

Animals and humans, in the 

Divine and amongst those who

Have attained Brahma.

Those who recite this mantra

Ask that peace within be

Strengthened so that it may be 

offered to the world”.

Then it was online learning, which was humorous more than anything, now that I’ve let it go together with that outdated ‘out of control’ pattern. As if to test me though, while we were able to use an iPad to Facetime my Dad, we couldn’t then use an additional device to access the online site, because the internet was super slow. This meant that my poor Dad had to use the phone on which he was speaking to us through Facetime, to show us the screen of his computer so we could watch the online content that way. Where there’s a will there’s a way and I didn’t get at all upset about it, just accepted it.

However, I’m not sure Elijah would have been too bothered if he hadn’t been able to access the online content. Even without the distraction of Eben and E, It took quite some time to engage him today, he wasn’t really interested in numberbonds and just wanted to look at a book with my Dad, which is what ultimately ended up happening, after an attempt at phonics and writing. At least we had something to upload to Class dojo, even though I wasn’t able to do that until all other devices were turned off!

The boys eating lunch gave me the opportunity to get on my mat and breath and move and just settle into myself. I don’t know if it’s just me, but I felt a shift in the energy today, and I’m hopeful that others have felt it too. There’s this awareness that we are all in it together, and that so many of us feel the same, and we will find a way - there is great comfort in the solidarity and I have received a number of supportive messages this last 24 hours, so thank you, it’s always reassuring to know you’re not alone!

Then we used what exercise time we had left to cycle to the beach for a walk and a swim. And here more allowing of the children to be children to run around naked, laughing and joking and playing. This really is what life should be more about, in the allowing, not in the pushing and pulling and trying to mould our children to be something that they are not. 

I suppose for me, this has been the greatest shift today. Of letting go of the expectations, educational of otherwise. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s more so that there isn’t only one way, and the way that I’m being encouraged by powers that be, isn’t the way that I want to take. I don’t want to go anywhere really, that’s the thing, I want to go inside myself, and enjoy the simplicity of life, with my boys and their innocence and support them at this very tricky time by showering them with love, kindness, nature and attention. I certainly don’t want to be stressing at them.

Thus it was a joy to make it to sunset and to bed time without any tears, or drama, or overwhelm or frustration, mine or theirs! I was reminded that what we put out will get mirrored back at us, and we were all much calmer today! I thank the ancients really, I’m always drawn to them when I need to be drawn back into soul and heart. It’s not that I – or you – realise that we have disconnected from that place, until we find our way back to it and recognise that we got lost again, that we got affected by lower energies.

 So I shall be doing all I can to keep the vibration high, to not be drawn down by the system, or by situations that are beyond my control and set my ego wild! It’s all part of the process though, one from a place of contraction to expansion and I’ve a feeling that’s playing out in the wider world. 

By way of validation, I picked by chance (or not!) the Tourmaline crystal card again today, which I think I picked for everybody really, and therefore share with you now:

“Tourmaline helps you to release stress from your body and mind. It reminds you to try to remain positive – no matter what the circumstances are in your life, there is always a silver lining to each cloud.

Compassion and tolerance for yourself and others is needed at this time. Open yourself up to giving and receiving love equally. Surround yourself with positive people that help to keep your energy uplifted”.

Happy Earth day all of you!

Love Emma xx