The second cancerian new moon!

It’s been a while, i have been ensconced in a writing project and just getting through the end of term demands with all the backwards and forwards travel to the school to help where I could.

This is only our second year of school, but I felt it last year and felt it again this year that as soon as school finished, it is like the collective holding that a school provides dissipates and there is a scattering of the energy on the island, as routines drop away and people holiday; it has always helped me to recognise the cohesive nature of a school on the community.

Scattering is probably the word for the energy generally at the moment; I have been trying to feel into it these last few days. Things are still very up in the air and there appears to be confusion, people must aren’t clear yet about paths to take, where to focus they energy, how to plan in a world that appears less certain than it has ever been (although we are always living with uncertainty to an extent) and which path to take.

However saying that, Mercury coming our of retrograde earlier this week, did seem to lift a little of the lack of clarity and begin again the consideration of what might come ahead, and the new moon is - I feel - trying to help with this. But it’s little steps, and probably this is where the cancer crab comes in. I’m not an astrologer but I do know that the fact we have two new moons in cancer this year is unusual and should capture our attention.

I’m cancerian so the cancerian energy is familiar to me. I too can have a hard exterior and yet a very soft and vulnerable interior and this is where we are at collectively, trying to protect ourselves from harm. I keep thinking of rock pooling and the fact that I’m regularly turning rocks on the beach (and back again may I add) to try and find crabs for the children, and I feel like we’re all a little bit like that with the whole covid thing, never quite sure when the rock of protection will be lifted from us, especially here in Guernsey where we are living on our own little covid-free rock.

But it’s more than that, crabs will scuttle sideways and bury themselves quickly in the sand. They’re good at trying to find an escape route, and I do wonder if this energy is up there in the air with us at the moment. There’s the possibility to see clearly into shadows and certainly in the one-to-one work I have been doing with people recently, there has been a keenness to look into the shadows and an openness to seeing what lies there, because on some level we know that things have to change, and we know that now is the time to do some significant shifting.

I can relate to this in my own life too, some family significant patterns have revealed themselves recently and continue to do so, each time I take to my mat I seem to yawn or cry away some of the past as my digraph, which has quite a story to tell softens some of its hardness, a long time in coming, that has has been held there for quite some time with the stress of life and the many moments when I have held my breath with anticipation and perhaps some fear of whatever life has presented at that time, and that has remained in the cellular memory unprocessed and gripping the liver and kidneys let alone my mind.

I do have a sense of where my energy needs to be placed, and a clearer idea of boundaries around then, but there is still greater clarity to come and I don’t get the feeling that this is the time to begin anything new, but to be giving consideration to it instead, feeling into it, like a crab does I suppose with it’s many legs, nit yet able to move forwards so moving sideways instead, because there is always the potential for change, so it’s a bit like keeping all your eggs in one basket for now. It’s a brave soul who does make a major commitment right now with everything so up in the air; perhaps a time to simply put the feelers out.

I always find the summer energy scattered, so whether this moon is enhancing that perhaps - like I was saying earlier there is confusion in the air, and I noticed that even the lunascope I was reading yesterday was confused and lacked a thread, and yet I’m wondering if this thread is difficult to follow, simply because it is sometimes easier to feel into the energy than explain it to others, and let’s face it, we’ll all have our own experience and bias anyway!

So just to bring it all together, I do really feel that this is - as it is every month - a time for considering new beginnings and how we might like our lives to look when the covid situation calms down and the neuroses around it eases, but I can’t be sure that this is the time to take action, not yet, there is more clarity to come through, and the universe will continue to bring signs to support this. I do know this this is a fab time to clear stuff that needs clearing, to get low to the earth, practice yoga, take some Reiki, have a massage, look at your diet, you know, start trying to uncover that which needs healing or expression, and just being with it and letting it drop away.

This is also a time to lighten up a little, and us spiritual bods would do well to remember that. Sometimes the journey can become heavy, we can take it and ourselves too seriously and forget to have fun and be like children, open to whatever comes. As always the words surrender and trust come to mind, let life unfold but try to be present to it so that you can surrender…and trust.

Love! We also need to remember to love.

xxxxx