Trust and faith on the waxing moon

Here we are, retreating on Sark, and I cannot tell you the relief; I’m a traveller at heart and my feet were itchy for new territory and my eyes for new landscape. I love Sark as most of you know, love Sark, love Sark, it’s got a deep soul. Here we are on the Soulful Sark retreat and unintentionally on a waxing super full moon too, there’s a divine timing to these things!

When I realised, I was a little aghast, because I have had a funny run of full moon retreats, the one on Herm, also a super full moon where my waters broke 7 weeks early and E and I had to be transferred to Guernsey by lifeboat in the middle of the night with the full moon shining roughly over head - that moon had been all about surrender and I did have to surrender to the flow of things, I wrote Dancing with the Moon about this.

Then there was a full moon retreat in Glastonbury where many of the ladies spent the weekend in tears, the full moon triggering a big release, let alone the energy of Glastonbury and the Goddess permeating the land there too. There was another full moon, a blue one on Samhain last year, when we were on Herm and there was a risk of us not getting back as the wind as so strong, triggering again, for some. So I did say no more retreats on full moons, as the weather is often challenging and the tides to, but here we are…

I’ve been giving a lot of Reiki this week and have noticed a commonality in that there has been a common imbalance in both root and crown chakras. I’ve a sense that this full moon is all about trust and faith; trusting in the support of the earth below us and faith in the sky above us. I love this interplay. There’s this beautiful quote from Vanda Scaravelli’s book, where she questions why we are practising yoga and writes:

“…We do it for the fun of it. To twist, stretch, and move around, is pleasant and enjoyable, a body holiday. There is an unexpected delight in meeting earth and sky at the same moment”.

I have been reading this beautiful little book called “Sun, Moon & Earth” about the alignment of them all, of teh relationship between earth and sky and the stone circles which track the movement of the moon and sun and the effect this has on us on earth. Stonehenge stands testament to this, as the oldest known calendar, remarkable! Even here on Guernsey we have ancient stone alignments, to the sun most definitely, but to the moon today. I found a stone alignment to the Beltane sunrise this week, which excited me, as the land and at the ancients revealed more of themselves to me.

Here on Sark there is a perplexing dolmen as its alignment makes little sense, We visit it when we’re here, maybe sometime it will reveal itself to us. I find that you have to build a relationship with these places, allow them to talk to us, a little bit like the moon, we have to be with her, notice her rising and setting and the time in the sky in-between and then she reveals more of her learnings and messages for us to navigate our lives.

Full moons, and especially super full moons, shine a light into the shadows, highlighting areas of healing, where we might need to pay attention, let go of an outdated story, something we have been holding onto. I had a trigger in my own life this week, so that I could see an old pattern more clearly, feel it in my body too, so that i could see more of the truth of it, and realise that it wasn’t my stuff, but someone else’s that I had taken on. This is the joy of working with the moon, she helps us to know more of our own truth. She also helps us to cultivate greater trust and faith, as does yoga and Reiki and spending time in nature.

Pay attention to what’s happening in your life, some old pattern coming up again, that same old situation, the same thought going around and around, same ache and pain in the body, same disagreement with someone, highlighting where we’ve changed and need to let go (the sting in the tail, it’s a Scorpio full moon). So do, use the full moon to forgive (yourself as much as anyone else) and notice where you have resistance to this and are holding onto your victimhood, this will often be so subtle that we have to really drop into it, accept where we are creating our own limited story and version of ourselves, the victim is a tricky one.

If we cannot forgive then basically we are allowing ourselves to continue playing out the victim. It takes courage to be really honest wit ourselves, some part of us will keep on bringing it up until we make resolution, or don’t and then it will just keep coming up again and again and we will find ourselves stuck, blaming everyone else rather than taking responsibility ourselves. It’s challenging at times, to see where we are off track and to take ownership of that. Good luck!

Trust and faith. That’s where it is at. Trusting in the universe, in ourselves, faith in the powers that be and faith in ourselves. We can be all of it! There’s a sting in the tail of this moon though, Scorpio, so pay attention! We will likely be triggered. There’s also passion to it, so maybe we get to notice more of where we should instead be placing our energy, what makes us feel alive?

Sark makes me feel alive and we’re already enjoying our time here, soulful Sark on a waxing full moon, clear skies to, I’m grateful for the powers that be that have brought me here this weekend with a very lovely bunch of students and friends.

Enjoy the wax!

Love Emma x