The changing Way

Well that was a potent new moon and star alignment wasn’t it! When the new moon peaked at 2.34pm I was out walking with my Wiccan cousin who was feeling new moon agitation whereas I was feeling relatively calm and thinking I may have gotten away with it, but alas, about 20 minutes after the peak I received a message which triggered an old pattern and that was the beginning of the end!

I don’t know why I was surprised. I’d spent the morning recording some videos for the online Reiki Level One training and was fully powered up on bio-dynamic exercises, Gassho meditation, sharing Reiki, to say nothing of the checking-in. That and the visit to a moon-aligned sacred site the night before and I had unwittingly set myself up perfectly.

I should have known it would be potent, 8th of the 8th, 8th a significant number, the infinity sign noels, as above so below. The ground dropped away for a time and clearing out a couple of dolmens that evening provably didn’t help matters. I was so tired and I know I was not alone, others have said they felt extraordinarily tired Sunday evening too.

Monday wasn’t much better, there was a heaviness and a weariness as the wheels fell off so to speak and this continued anon to Tuesday as the revealed pattern played out, the inner child was held, the Leo new moon rumblings rumbled on and the hard to face truth dawned. Yikes. It’s so uncomfortable when we see the way we create our own chaos, and the manner in which we hold on so tightly to it too, defending it, believing that it is THE WAY.

This is when LEO revealed itself, not least the rage that had accompanied the energy shift, but the courage of the lion, the roar as we are told a few home truths and finally take ownership of them, rather than allowing ourselves to play the victim. Urgh. So very uncomfortable, but a necessary part of the process to re-orientate the Way.

You see the Way changes and it is knowing when we need to bend to accommodate the change, and allow ourselves to be transformed into something else. It’s about letting go (always blinking letting go) if the way that we define ourselves as much as anything else, and it is this that is difficult because we define ourselves so rigidly at times, that it’s difficult to break this down comfortably.

Ultimately it’s about disintegration and stripping away the layers down to core essence. Unity is the greatest illuminator and this can help to transform patterns and indeed structures, freeing us from things that no longer serve us (it can be as simple, or as difficult as a thought pattern) and that get in the way of our wholeness.

Upon reflection, the new moon was really asking us to look at our cherished beliefs, ideals and identities and examine, reexamine, illuminate, release and transform these. Are we really who we think we are? Are we really those labels with which we identify? Or is there more to us than we allow? In our quest to follow THE WAY do we limit ourselves because we’re not open to there being another way?

I’m really aware of this in the spiritual field. You know how we might separate and divide things - one’s spiritual, ones material, one’s therefore good, one’s therefore bad, without appreciating the goodness and badness in every thing and the spiritual and material in everything too. Once again it comes back to perspective and how we perceive ourselves and the world we live in.

I' remember my earlier days as a yoga teacher and feeling that I had to behave a certain way, that I had to have all my crap sorted if I was to be a sincere teacher. I’ve mentioned this before. The problem arose in my false perception of believing I needed to behave and be a certain way because of a label given to me. Ultimately all I can ever be is me, with all my vast imperfections. Being a yoga teacher changes nothing and more fool anyone for thinking that a label all of sudden means that you are sorted and - careful, careful - that you are better than others, all of a sudden wise, for example.

Nope, we’re all in this together, all muddling along as best we can, doing our best for our children, for then planet and for ourselves. We can only ever work with where we’re at, how we came in and the level of consciousness that we now bring into this world, and that will be dependant on all sorts of things. The moon is always trying to raise vibration, she picks us up and throws us around when she knows that it is time for us to wake up a little bit more and make changes. She takes no prisoners. It’s not an easy Way following her, because she’s not constant, or consistent, hmm, sound familiar, invite the moon into your life and you’ll know what I mean!

So the new moon encouraged us to examine dissonance in our lives and to let go, embracing (with courage) the really tricky disintegration process without resisting it or judging it - or judging yourself. Anything that is over-defined or inflexible needs to change! It’s an amazing time - the portal is open - to strip away anything that defines and limits you. Be free. Create a new WAY. Some fo you will find that you have no choice, that the universe has intervened.

As you let go so you create space for the new, and it will come, but it will be subject to divine timing. There may be more letting go first, more release of rigidity, more breaking down, more darkness to sit in first, more loose ends to tie up, more order brought to the chaos. As the walls come tumbling down (and it will absolutely feel like this, all the walls you have built around your heart especially, and your solar plexus, to protect your vulnerability) so the true YOU can burst through, with vision of a NEW WAY and a new direction.

Some of you will have felt a tuning to your third eye. Others will have felt an agitation deep inside. Others will have felt the endless tears and not known the reason for this. And others will have felt nothing at all. It’s our experience, our way, but it’s a helpful idea to open up to all other possibilities and ways…

The new moon showed the way. It was time. The stars and planets were aligned. I’m grateful for that. I finally moved forward with publishing From Darkness Comes Light, I couldn’t help but laugh at the timing. While the disintegration feels like a death, the space it creates feels like calm and gentle, it’s a relief!

Happy wax!

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