Happy Imbolc and new moon!
Happy Imbolc and new moon! It really is an auspicious day, Imbolc is all about the stirrings of spring and new beginnings and so is the new moon. It was Chinese new year too, so really we are entering a new phase and it really does feel that, at least in my life.
Like many others, I have begun to see the wood through the trees and been honest with myself about the changes that need to be made to lift the heaviness from my heart, and lighten myself in the process. The heart always knows the way but the head tends to take over and convince us to maintain the status quo, generally because we have taken on some belief system about how our life should be lived, or about some aspect of our identity.
I went through a process not long ago of letting go of identity. I decided that I didn’t want to be limited by these titles, such as yoga teacher, Reiki teacher, company secretary etc. The company secretary one should have gone a long time ago but I held on because it was a bit like a security blanket, a what if it all goes wrong attempting to live more in alignment with the heart. Well it’s gone now.
I do believe that it was letting go of titles the helped me to see more clearly where changes needed to be made around teaching. My heart had been telling me for a while but because I have always done what i have always done and because I had this narrative around being in service and offering my self for the greater good, well that was an outdated concept too, a belief that was actually holding me back. In reality - and the Bhagavad Gita talks about this - you can be in service to a multitude of things, to the divine, but also to your children, to your partner, to your community. Approaching life from a spiritual perspective shouldn’t limit us to one thing.
This also came up for me this last moon cycle, the notion of spirituality and the manner in which it has become such a buzzword and a trendy thing to be. People can go on a plethora of courses to ‘train’ to be spiritual, or so I hear, but really, true spirituality is embodied to the extent that one doesn’t separate it from themselves, or from their life, it is lived and doesn't therefore need defining or any attempt at “I am being spiritual” because you just are.
For me it is about honouring the sacred and I became aware recently how previous wounding from the destruction of the sacred, still plays out in this lifetime. While it may pain me, I can’t stop anyone else selling out on the sacred, but I can stop myself doing this. I am very aware that this also means that I cannot sell out on myself. All of this has brought me deeper towards motivation, and the motivation for our actions and of course our attachment to outcome. Becoming more honest with myself about this has been an absolutely liberating process and helped to highlight strands of patterns that had still been playing out but don’t need to anymore.
This has all created a shift in perspective and this alone feels like a fresh start. It was an amazing day actually filled with my favourite things, fires, the great outdoors and hanging out under trees with Elijah, a dip in the sea, dolmens, a yoga practice with my teacher, spending time with wonderfully nourishing friends and even a bit of baking and craft making and a visit to the Goddess. Iff this is the new start then I’m very grateful for it, thank you powers that be.
Let’s see where this seasonal shift takes us, we’re half way between the winter solstice and the spring equinox and I have a feeling the light will really soon flood in. And let’s not forget we have 2.2.22 tomorrow and all the major planets go forwards this weekend. If your heart is till feeling heavy then be really honest, separate head from heart and go deeper in.
Love Emma xx
