Clearing the ancestral line and spiritual ego all in one!
This new moon has encouraged me to want to retreat. The seasonal energy shift doesn’t help. But it’s more than that. I’m starting to see things differently and I’m curious to stand back to let that settle. There’s been a theme this week around the spiritual ego and about clearing the ancestral and generational line (and the blueprint therefore).
We are the result of our ancestral and generational background, as much as we are of our parental, educational, cultural, religious, racial and societal etc. conditioning. For the most part we came into this world with baggage, and our entrance into this world, could have merely added to that, let alone everything that has happened since then. I can’t stop thinking about the Russian dolls and how us girls were in our grandmother’s tummy in the form of an egg in our own mother’s body. Maybe this is the reason that people say we carry our mother in our womb space - albeit that’s sort of back to front, but we were there at our own mother’s birth, albeit in egg form! But you can’t make a human without an egg…
There’s been lots of references to ancestral and generational baggage, not only in my own shadow work this week, but in healing sessions with others, so I am very aware that it is in the field, so to speak, and I’m delighted about that. What fascinates me the most is that if we can access it in ourselves, the emotions that have come through the generations (fear or worry, for example) then we can clear it in ourselves by literally feeling into it and tracing it back the generations and asking for it to be cleared. We are then no longer holding onto this stuff that came in with us, but that are not us! We clear our own blueprint then, so it is not so weighed down with ancestral stuff that clogs it up otherwise.
It’s possibly a bit out there for some, to see healing on this level, but I know it to be true. I was watching a You Tube documentary about the consciousness of plants and trees and it was step too far for the friend I was watching it with. He is a lover of trees but it was beyond the realms of his training on trees, and he could not get his head around the fact a tree is conscious and can communicate. Again, I know this to be so, but it made me aware that sometimes we can only manage so much at any one time of stuff that sounds a little bonkers, that is, until we have experienced it ourselves.
To be honest i felt like that about faeries. While I have always been fond of the notion of faeries and like to believe them to be true and real, when another one of my friend’s started talking about seeing them I thought for sure he must be seeing things, that it wasn't actually possible. But lo and behold, after spending time with him and out in nature at certain times of the night, and in certain places, and also building up a certain frequency and opening up to it, I was able to see what I never previously thought was possible. So now I know.
Which brings me around to the spiritual ego because this is also highlighted to me this week, as if the new moon is lifting more of the veil on this, and because maybe talking about seeing faeries, brings up my spiritual ego. The spiritual ego is tricky, because it tricks us into thinking we are somehow more spiritual and therefore more superior to others. We know we have slipped int it when we feel exactly that - superior. Also when we consider ourselves to be more spiritual than others. As if spirituality is like wearing a badge of honour, “look at me, I’m so spiritual”!. I mean, we’ve all been there, and there are moments of course when I still find myself there, the ego is super tricky, is the problem!
But I am noticing more of it. Whether it’s just that I’m noticing more of it, or that there is actually more of it, who knows. It’s become trendy these days to be spiritual so that doesn’t help matters. Of course true spirituality doesn’t need to look a certain way. It has a something about it though, a vibration perhaps, or a feeling, a sense of authenticity and just being … just being with one’s self. Hmm, it’s difficult to define, but it doesn’t need to be talked about, bragged about with all of the spiritual waffle crappiness that gets thrown about with the ‘love and light’ brigade. Nope, it’s much more grounded than that and can be super nitty gritty at times too - it’a absolutely not all love and light!
There’s that wonderful quote about enlightenment and the monk, which goes something like, ‘before enlightenment, chop wood, after enlightenment, chop wood’. Says it all really. So too Jack Kornfield with his wonderfully titled book, After the Ecstasy, the Laundry. Yes, even on the spiritually-orientated path, the laundry never stops. It’s a test of my weariness. If I’m really weary, even the laundry pile stresses me out! That’s life. All of it. Even this, typing away at 10.10pm on a Friday night when I said earlier that I would prioritise sleep this evening…it’s all one big learning!
So with lots of gratitude and love to my ancestors for all the wonderful DNA they provided and the lessons brought through with this to learn and the baggage to clear. And to the spiritual egoists who pop themselves on a pedestal of love and light in an attempt to actually avoid doing the nitty gritty work (it’s called spiritual bypassing btw, when you focus solely on the light in you), I’m grateful too. It all causes me to check in and see if I’m mirroring and where I’m stuck and need some shifting, and more laughter and fun. It also causes me to want to retreat because I can’t be arsed with much of it!
I will just end this post with something that has been bothering me this week. The anti-brigade. I think it was Mother Teresa who said, don’t go on an anti-war march, go on a pro-peace march instead. She had a very good point. The more we are anti something, the more negativity and dis-harmony we create. We don’t need anymore! I’ve lost count of the number of clients and people I have chatted to who are totally affected and thrown off centre and overwhelmed by sitting on a pro or anti position with the very divisive and ever so boring vaccine debate, and now the lateral flow one too. God, I’m so bored of it, I can’t be the only one bored of it? Please don’t talk to me about it. We’ve banned it in the house. What on earth did we talk about before it?! This alone is a reason to retreat from the world at this time!
OK, I’m off before I start ranting, because I could, because there’s a lot going on out there at the moment, but really, if I’m honest, it’s always just about what’s going on inside…because that affects how we perceive the outside. Hence the retreat, inside. I’ll come back soon though as I want to share my St John’s wort with Cerys and I’ve got these fab hand made and ethical earrings from my cousin Rosemary with long eared owl feathers in them, which just makes me so joyful and happy!
Love Emma x
