Caring deeply
People have acknowledged that I am bored of the vaccine conversation but ask me the reason I don’t join one of the local online groups who have a number of local medical and legal professionals on them (to validate the groups’ professional and informed status) to help me know what’s happening legally.
I’m sure these groups are doing a wonderful job, and the people in them feel that they are fighting a worthy cause, admittedly I have seen some fall-out, in group members overwhelmed or in disagreement with other group members on stance and direction, and inevitably there are different motivations and a sprinkling of ego.
The thing is, I’m really not concerned about the vaccine per se. I mean, yes, as with any medical intervention, it concerns me how it might agitate the immune system and with the vaccine especially we don’t know the long term effects on immune function or indeed on changes to individual blueprint and how that might transmit down the line, and therefore the greater impact on humanity (as a species) in the future. But equally, we can’t be sure how many additional deaths in this moment there may have been without vaccine intervention.
Furthermore, we have to respect that everyone has an opinion and a stance. My stance is not necessarily the same as yours and vice versa, and I don’t feel it is my right to try and convert you or convince you that my way and opinion is best. Just as I don’t want to be converted or coerced by anyone else. It is an extremely divisive subject that has highlight our prejudice and our various perspectives and ways of seeing the world. This has been fascinating in many respects but also concerning, mainly because of the compromise on human rights and the right to choice about what is put in your body and being able to voice this without fear of being vilified by others.
Someone was telling me recently that a friend of a friend had said that all those who don’t take the vaccine should be put up against the wall and shot. I mean, when you think about that, it’s interesting isn’t it. That we can hold such strong opinion that we actually think others who do not hold that same opinion should be shot. You can see how ethnic cleansing begins and that ordinary people living ordinary lives end up becoming part of that because they truly believe that their way is the best and everyone else should be, well, annihilated from Planet Earth.
The covid testing of children is another divisive area. An active and vocal anti-vax friend cannot get his head around the fact parents will test their children and pop the plastic bit up their noses to do so (with the supposed cancer-creating chemical on it, which interestingly is on lots of pharmaceutical tablets that people take all the time), he thinks they surely care more about their children then themselves, so they won’t do it. Yet I know parents who care so deeply about their children that they will test them and think those who don’t, don’t care about their children. It’s a total split in perspective. Both ultimately care but go about it in two opposing ways!
Anyhow, it’s perhaps not surprising that my concern is one of human rights. Therefore it’s not just about the vaccine, it’s about Covid generally. I got myself impassioned about this during the second lockdown here on Guernsey, because of the loss of rights of a father to accompany his partner to support her and witness the birth of their child when born with medical intervention and Caesarean birth. This goes against everything I believe in terms of intimacy at the beginning of life here on Planet Earth.
I was watching a documentary last night, The Human Animal by Desmond Morris, initially released in 1994. There are six episodes but for whatever reason I found myself watching the one on immortal genes, where the documentary showed images of babies born in Russia at a certain time and how they were essentially removed from the mother at birth, swaddled and placed together in a row of babies in a ‘nursery’. This in contrast to a home birth elsewhere and the intimacy that accompanied the experience. They’re still questioning the emotional impact on the Russian babies of the separation from their mothers and the impact this has culturally and indeed genetically.
There is always, it seems, a compromise on human rights depending on where we live. You have only to look at what is happening in Afghanistan and the loss of rights being now inflicted on women and no doubt children. I have been lucky to grow up in a culture which appeared, for the most part, to respect human rights, so it has come as a shock to witness how easily human rights can be compromised and effectively removed. What has shocked me especially is the extent to which Big Pharma and the Medical Model of health and well being essentially rule the world. I mean I knew it, but Covid has certainly highlighted it.
My other concern has been the manner in which our attempts at giving a crap about the environment are also compromised. before Covid there was a big drive to move away from plastic. Covid came and all of a sudden we were back to plastic again. I received last week a whole heap of lateral flow tests that are made in China (the irony) that are made of plastic, that will sit in landfill I guess. I might be wrong, but for the most part, I don’t see too many politicians and leaders challenging this, even those who supposedly stand up for the environment (and don’t get me started on the cars in Guernsey, we Guerns have this sense of entitlement to the car, as if we feel we’re exempt from climate change I’m guessing)..
It seems that as a humanity we’re really confused. Fearful too. We want to survive. So who can blame us for the action being taken. We don’t know and we’re clutching at straws (quite literally too, if you think about these tests). So maybe we can be excused for the manner in which we so easily take away rights and coerce, manipulate and try to control outcome. We all do it to a certain extent when we’re stuck in fear and overwhelm, and with our children who appear out of control.
For me personally, it’a about energy and the bigger picture. It doesn’t serve me to join groups that sap my energy and distract me from my family and clients. I have my stance on this whole crazy time unfolding in our life - we chose to be here at this time, we are the children of our times as one of my friend’s always tells me - and I trust that the bigger picture will unfold in its own beautiful divine timing as we as a humanity - with luck - come to further awaken.
It’s always messy when we’re transitioning from one way or being to another. And we need to transition if we as a humanity want to continue existing. I have confidence that Planet Earth will continue in her merry way, but humanity? Some couldn’t care less, living in the moment of greed, taking what they can from their time here on this beautiful Planet with no concern for future generations. Others do care, there are many warriors out there who do battle in their own way, come what may.
Maybe we’re all warriors in our own way. Like Arjuna on the battle field in the Bhagavad Gita, figuring out how we can possibly live our dharma when it is so uncomfortable. Life is uncomfortable when lived from a spiritual perspective. I’m reading this fabulous book by Steve Biddulph called Fully Human. In it he writes, “The first thing to realise about spirituality is that it is tough. It isn’t for wimps…Spirituality is tough because it is preparing you for the toughness of life, what it will inevitably bring”. A spiritual practice has prepared us for and helps us in many respects to navigate this time with all its contradictions, separations and divisions. It is all part of a process.
One thing he also writes which I love and feeds a little into the theme of late around spiritual ego, “spirituality that doesn’t lead to action in the world is really just fake, crystal-shop delusion. Those who make sandwiches in disaster zones are closer to nirvana, even if they never chanted ‘om’ in their lives”. He makes an important point and this arises in the Bhagavad Gita too, the need to take action. But that action does not need to be aggressive or confrontational, it does not need to involve an “anti’ march (I keep coming back to Mother Teresa and her comment about going on pro-peace, not anti-war march, in terms of one putting out negative energy and one positive) or create even more separation - us and them, and essentially create more war and disharmony in this world (and within us, may I add).
It can be simply taking action that you feel best protects your children, taking action to live your life as harmoniously as possible, taking action to follow your truth, taking action to live quietly and respectfully on this beautiful planet. We should feel free to take action in a way that best suits us individually.
Earlier on in this whole vaccine passport debate I did write to HSC and the CCA and also to Heidi Soulsby, but I quickly realised that I was hitting a brick wall. A stance has been taken and will not be swayed. I would have been wasting my energy taking it any further, and distracting me even more from my family that I was already distracted from in writing emails and letters and getting myself stressed about the seeming nonsense of the whole situation. The loss of inner harmony was the price I paid and I learned that that was not the way, for me at least.
I shall leave others with their fight if that is their dharma. I have made a conscious decision to retreat from media and from the hype around the vaccine for the sake of my family and my health and wellbeing. It doesn’t mean I don’t care. It’s just means that I have chosen another way to take action. i care deeply about our human rights and about the continuation of humanity and the manner in which we treat this beautiful planet. I care deeply about raising vibration and seeing a positive shift in the way we relate to each other and this planet. You can’t help but care when you have a spiritual orientation towards life - when you appreciate that you are a part of everything it changes things.
With that in mind, my attention is slowly shifting towards our Plant A Tree project launching on Saturday 3 October. E and I have a a whole heap of saplings growing in pots in our garden and pig sty, and they absolutely need to go in the ground - when I’m near them I can hear them calling out, “please can I go in the earth:”. They need to go in the earth, many are outgrowing their pots. Please help! If you fancy growing your own tree and creating a relationship with it then take note! More details to follow. And on that note, there’s this beautiful documentary about the consciousness of plants and trees, a step too far for many, even for E, but totally resonated with me…https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Idf4oYerbTM
Love Emma x
