Following joy on the new moon.
So here we are on the dark night of the moon, where there is literally no light. It can be an empty space, unnerving for some, because the moon appears gone, like the sun on the winter solstice, will it ever return? And yet return it does, the new moon tomorrow and soon the beautiful sliver visible in a few days time and waxing all the way to the full moon on the 16th.
It’s an energetic month ahead, we have two new moons in the month which is really unusual and various planetary meetings that are definitely going to shift things up for us and no doubt highlight even more of he division in this world around how we want to live our life and our values inherent within that - love or fear, it’s going to keep testing us…
This is not helped (or perhaps it is, depending on one’s perspective!), by time speeding up, since the Equinox it’s getting faster, and losing an hour didn’t help so that this week has been a major catch pop for so many of us. There is an ungroundedness in the air to, most of my clients his week have had a noticeable imbalance in their root chakra, many up in heir heads trying to figure it all out and not quite down here in the body and on Planet Earth.
We have a terrible habit of doing that. Not just disassociating when things get tough, but of residing up in our heads trying to literally figure it all out. We can’t. We can try. but the magic is not to be found up there. The magic is in the body and down on Planet Earth. This is the paradox. To expand we ned to come all teh way down. The more we can go down with gravity, the more that will take us up. But in a freeing way. New age spiritualism has it all back to front and then practitioners wonder why their spiritual practices don’t seem to work.
We can’t bypass the body. We also can’t live without the Earth. Mind you, we could be excused for thinking that we can. As my cousin highlighted to me last week, isn’t it ridiculous that nature is now reduced to ‘reserves’, as if we should be delighted that we have reserved some nature. I mean nature used to be everywhere. But now we develop on every scrap of it and contain parts of it in our attempt to make it seem like we care, and all the while forgetting that without nature (WE ARE NATURE) that humanity cannot exist on Planet Earth. Stop the development!
As for the mind, we can never figure it all out. The mind likes everything to be known and certain but it can suffocate the heart and soul in the process. Many of us know this, we can feel it for ourselves, but it is very difficult to live in an empty way, without somehow trying to fix it or make it certain. We want assurance. We want to know that all will be well. But to live in alignment withe the divine, well we have to live in the emptiness of the present moment, of not knowing, so that there is space for expanded consciousness to enter, lightening us up in the process.
What has become increasingly apparent to me is the need to fill ourselves up with joy - to follow our joy and let this be our guide, let this be our healer, let this orientate us into the present moment where … all is well. I have been orientating in this direction and using it as an opportunity to enquire within, to see all the barriers I have set up around this, and noticing how our sense of well-worth (or lack in many cases) prevents us in opening to our joy - are we worth it? YES! Should we feel guilt? NO!
This set me off down a path of perspective, another theme this new moon is ushering in. Which perspective are we taking? Our perspective shifts our experience and how we interpret our experience will shift our perspective. I have become increasingly aware how so many catastrophes and see there cup as half empty rather than half full and making things much worse - in their minds - than they need to be and limit themselves and their experience of life in the process.
I am also increasingly aware how our relationship to ourselves shifts our perspective and the way that we interpret the world. If we have been taught to hate ourselves, as so many have (our society is so good at that, that we don’t even know we have become victim to it until we try to unpick it years later) then even when we are fed a positive comment, we will neutralise it or make it negative. This can make it very difficult for other people, who may feel they have complimented us and are helping to build our self-esteem but have no idea of how we may have interpreted it differently. It’s a reminder that we ALL internalise the world differently.
As for limitation, well there are many ways that we self limit ourselves, not quite taking responsibility for our own feelings or lack and projecting these onto others, blaming them. Only we can fill ourselves up. Only we can nurture ourselves. Only we can discover what brings us joy and fulfilment. And when we know, we should follow it, letting go of any of our crazy thoughts that tell us we are not worth it and that we have all these other things that need to be done. Jeez, we only get one chance on Planet Earth in this incarnation anyhow.
We should remember of course, to offer our gratitude to the universe. The universe wants nothing more than to fill us up with our joy, but it cannot do that unless we open to it and receive. We need to be empty too. Empty of how we think it should be, or look like, of trying to control outcome or make it the way we want it to be, of not grasping…instead we need to get the little mind out of the way and let it be filled with limitless abundance and love instead.
I’ve found it an enlivening wane, these last few days especially, helped by Sark no doubt, with greater awareness of my patterning around grasping and trying to make certain and instead following the joy and settling into the emptiness. Not easy, but interesting! We should soon pop out of this cold spell, ready to fully emerge into the fertility of spring and all we have ahead to create and bring in - joyful times ahead if we choose.
Love Emma x
P.S. Thank you for my beautiful roses my beautiful Russian friend, Natasha! xxx
