Coming home to ourselves
There is something afoot, the energy is really unsettled and the anxiety and general pain of humanity can be felt in the air. I feel like we’re being squeezed again as we wax to the full moon next week, and eclipse season ahead next month.
It’s about love, because it’s always about love, because we’re here to learn more about love, to experience greater love, to be love. But obviously there’s an opposite to that, and it’s very easy to close our heart to the pain of the world because, well, it’s painful.
We’ve just gone through two years of a pandemic that has caused so many to close their hearts to those they previously loved, simply because they held different opinions and perspectives on say vaccination or lock-down or whatever it might have been. Friendships have ended, siblings have fallen out, families have been split, people haven’t felt they could speak their truth, at least not without being judged for it. The heart beat of the world dimmed.
And now we have a war and the media is filled with accounts and photos of acute suffering, of people killing people, because they were born in a different country, have a different perspective, don’t speak the same way, whatever it is that motivates one to kill another for some cause they truly believe in. It’s yet more separation and division, yet more closing of the heart, yet more us and them, yet more buying into the notion of good and bad, yet more ego-fuelled living that further closes the heart.
It would be easy to lose hope, to flounder in the pain of it all, the anxiety and the feelings of helplessness and despondency, but this serves no one either, not really. Sure we may feel it. I am very aware that the energy of anxiety is very much felt by many and this general tiredness and weariness because we’ve been through so much already, lives have been significantly changed the last few years and there’s no respite, not period of integration, nothing stable and certain. But we can’t. Because of all this gives a wonderful opportunity to find more heart.
As a humanity we really do have to dig deeper. We’re here to find more of our heart and we each have a responsibility towards that, if not for ourselves then for the future generations ahead. We are the micro of the macro, what we do influences everyone else around us. Take our aura, this extends out, or can extend out a metre or so depending on how healthy we are. If we’re feeling joyful and open hearted our aura will be strong and positively influence everyone around us. If we feel angry and annoyed, then our aura diminishes and we repel others away from us, separating and divining ourselves from others.
Our incessant need to define ourselves doesn’t help either. Always this need to separate and divide, to be someone other than everyone else, forgetting that we’re all human and all in this together, and really can’t we just all get along and move beyond all this obsessive labelling. Us humans have gone mad in our quest to be somehow different, the ‘me me me’ culture that we’re breeding. If only we could find more of our heart and open to it, beyond our fear of pain, of not knowing, of having no certainty, of being ok without it having to look a certain way, life, love, whatever it might be.
To love without putting up the barriers, without adding in conditions can be the hardest thing. Yet this is where a spiritual practice like yoga and Reiki takes us. To place where we can love unconditionally, which means being open hearted and living regardless of what comes back at us and being absolutely OK with that. So much easier said than done, and I talk from my own experience of observing this and the conditions I suddenly put in place because of my vulnerability and inherent fear of being rejected and/or experiencing pain.
Yet I’m very aware that pain is actually our friend. With pain we have something to work with, an opportunity to go deeper, to see more of our patterning and the manner in which we create our own suffering due to our mental constructs and conditioning and our need to avoid pain, this being the irony! To be truly vulnerable take great courage and strength of heart, takes knowing the Self on a deep level.
Always, always, always it has to come back to us each individually and how we are relating to ourselves and to others. It’s all very well looking outside of ourselves and moaning about the behaviour of others, of the atrocities of war, for example, but what about the atrocities in our own lives? What about the way we label good and bad, evil and pure, spiritual and non-spiritual overlooking that there is balance to everything, light and dark, all part of the greater whole, so why do we keep rejecting always half?
This takes deep honesty and yet more courage, because it is one thing recognising how badly we talk to ourselves, how much we give ourselves a hard time and loathe aspects of ourselves (how good or bad we are, sigh) and quite another to do something about it and find the strength to change it, to begin to love and accept ourselves, to forgive those we feel have harmed us and to stop the blame culture that always has us looking outside ourselves and that changes nothing in the long term, just keeps us locked in a pattern of blame and victimhood, of not taking responsibility.
Yes, we’ve all been harmed. Yes, we’ve all got wounds. Yes, we’ve all felt pain. But we have a choice. We can wallow in it allowing all of this to continue to define us, or we can do something about it, take responsibility throw ourselves into practice and into healing and go for it, make a real difference in this world, deepen our relationship to heart and truly open our heart to the world, love unconditionally come what may, positively shift our vibration, strengthen our aura and help to shift our perspective into something far more positive and heart-based in the process, lighter. Heck, we might even start to live more lightly on the earth in the process…
I could rant now about the traffic on Guernsey and the lack of consciousness and responsibility about living lightly, about this planet and our need for big cars on such a small island and all the identity issues tied in here around power and money and control and ego, but I shan’t, I’ll leave that for another day, but cars to me and the traffic just seem to highlight how far we still have to go to shift from ego to heart…from the unconscious to the conscious…and how much healing we still have to do individually and as a collective humanity…
I’ll leave you with this lovely quote by C JoyBell,
“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.”
If you need some grounding and centring, some coming home to yourself, and you have a yoni then please come along to the Yoni Yoga fund-raiser on Saturday 4-5.30pm at St Martin’s Community Centre in aid of Bright Tights, in honour of my friend, Marie, who sadly passed from cancer of the vulva at the age of 41 last September. This is an opportunity to come home to ourselves, connecting heart and womb-space, the inner guide and inner wisdom, for healing and love and greater connecting to Self, our soul, essentially. No need to book. Thank you!
Love Emma xx
