The full moon and its cosmic joking

Well there I was, writing about being careful about what you think…and there I was thinking how much I needed a break, my soul has been craving peace and tranquility, a few days free from the clock and time, to just be gently, pottering, in nature and around the garden and…my thoughts manifested into reality with another minor bout of Covid!

I did laugh out loud at the cosmic joke before bowing down to powers that be with deep gratitude for the opportunity to pause, rest and reset. Life had got busy, out of balance, too much rushing and giving and not enough time to let things be. I see the pattern. This is exactly what was happening when I got Covid the first time around at Christmas, and here we are at Easter…I work myself to the holidays and then don’t schedule a break…so Covid comes in to create one instead. I’m conscious of the pattern now, thank you Covid, and will try to schedule a break next time!

Covid itself is quite kind to me. I did get the aches and the shakes which alerted me to the fact I probably had Covid again, but after sleep and a lot of Reiki and she Ayurevdic remedies that quickly abated and while yes, we are requested to stay at home, I need the sea on my skin to feel alive, and so I’ve been in the sea, even managed a surf, which is something else that has joyfully returned in my life (thank you Tantric course for opening me up to deeper pleasure in my life) and this all coincided with menstruation, so I’ve been able to rest more fully into that and the blood wisdom that accompanies it…do the things that bring joy, and rest, when needed.

I’ve found myself drawn to the moon garden again, preparing it for the full moon on Saturday, I’m keen to better work the space this summer, I’m not quite sure how just yet, but I’m drawn to working more deeply with earth energy and sacred geometry. I have a plethora of new seedlings growing in my parents green house, new healing plants this time, well actually, a whole heap of calendula and echinacea again, but also milk thistle, Tulsi and clary sage to name a few. It was good to get my hands in the earth again, the moon rising, sun beginning to set.

As my Ayurvedic doctor said this morning, “things always come to us at the right time and in the best way”. She’s right. There’s been a few things coming at the right time and in the best way and Covid is definitely one of them. It’s a genius virus because it truly changes things, I suppose the fact it’s a ‘corona’virus says it all really, for it awakens more of the crown and for me anyway, it seems to allow me to see more clearly where I am out of balance in my life and what might need adjusting, I suppose it makes me more conscious of that which I have been trying to ignore - there was some significant adjustments after the first dose.

I know from others that this full moon is working this magic in other lives too, making us very well aware of some of our patterning and also the ways in which we distract ourself from being with ourselves, externalising much of our need to be wanted and needed, when really all that is wanted and needed is a deeper connection with self. In honouring this deeper connection with self we find the love that we often try to seek from outside of ourselves. And when we find that deeper love for self then we have much less need of others’ love for the sake of it, and much more love for others in a non-grasping, non-needy and unconditional way too. It’s genius. Thank you Covid. Thank you moon.

As I post this, I am now testing negative. That was a quick round but I wonder if its always quicker the second time around as the body already has natural immunity. Plus I knew how to be with it this time and could more easily see some of the lessons it was bringing. This is the first Easter I have had off from working in years and it feels amazing - sorry to those of you I cancelled, but if I’d have listened to my intuition, I shouldn't have scheduled working anyway…we live and learn!

Love to you all.

Enjoy the full moon!

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