New moon and the egg

So we have a new moon in Aquarius arriving on Saturday and I am loving its gentle and yet potent energy!

This is the first new moon of the year and it feels as if it is truly ushering in new beginnings. This is new beginnings in terms of or relationship with ourself, which will undoubtably filter out into our external world.

I mentioned in a recent blog post that 2022 was about getting our ducks in a row and I have been aware this week that that continues for many, stilll there is a holding on to the past and that which needs to now be let go of. The bind is huge though for many, for some a marriage bind, that vow that was taken that forms an energetic link that is difficult to break for all sorts of reasons, and that might involve a ceremony of sorts to set you free from each other, and binds in terms of core beliefs we have taken on and invested a lot of energy in maintaining all these years

You see sometimes its difficult to let go of that which we have become, even when we know how much we now need to move on. It’s not that fear binds us, although it absolutely does, but also our lack of faith in the universe and in ourselves and lack of trust that all will be well. We might ask ourselves wo will we be when we let go of this story and that narrative - and that relationship/career that is deadening us - but actually who are we if we keep continuing to tell ourselves the same story over and over again, getting bored of our own narrative in the process.

It has felt a little ground hog day for some this week in their healing. More of the old coming up, which they felt they had let go of. The thing is, and I talk about this from my own experience, we don’t aways realise the extent of the protection we have put around our heart, the invisible armour we use to hide our vulnerability and the mask we apply to our face to hide the pain and suffering and sheer anguish we are feeling on the inside. We are all very good at putting on a show to the world.

And then we are surprised when we find that a part of the costume needs to drop away, because we had forgotten it was there in the first place, having placed it there many years ago perhaps, in childhood for many, when we first faced pain and instability, when the earth may have momentarily dropped away and our life as we knew it changed. We should never underestimate the effect of the transitions we make in our lives, leaving our mothers for the first time, or her leaving us, starting school, having our best friend turn on us, our parent being late to collect us, our first sleep over, having to read a poem by heart to the class…all of these things can cause us to grab a piece of invisible costume and pop it on.

But alas, the costume is dropping away! Bit by bit. So that we get to see who we really are on the inside. We just don’t know until we know. And sometimes that process is painful, like the uncasing of a seed within a shell, we are fragile, this new version of us that was always there but which was hidden, is revealed to the world. How will we be received? Well, the thing is, we actually stop caring. Because we start to realise that it is the caring too much about what others think that has caused us so much of our pain in the first place, that has caused us to runaway from who we truly are for fear of our brightness and standing out.

It feels as if this is the time to stand out though. To be our lovely self come what may and what opinions other people have about that. Opinions change like the wind and there has certainly been a lot of that lately. Best not to get rigid then, not least in our opinions about others, but in our opinion about ourself. We are all where we are meant to be and we are all doing the best we can do with our current level of awareness and relationship with fear. Thus if we do want to set ourselves free, then it is our level of awareness that needs to shift, letting go of our fear that sticks us in the process. And when the awareness shifts and we set ourselves free of our fear, well the costume drops away a little bit. Its genius really.

I am constantly reminded that we are in a world that is always changing due to the thoughts we think and the collective reality that we create because of these thoughts on a collective basis. Also because of the thoughts we think, we see life a particular way - our perception then is shifted by our thinking and our level of consciousness in any given moment. So really we come down to those thoughts and how we might shift them at a very deep level. But as any of you will know who have tried to meditate, we get a whole lot of thoughts running through our mind seemingly endlessly and not all of them are very kind, and many of them are very fear based. And these are only the ones we are conscious of, let alone all the ones in our subconscious mind.

All of this becomes more apparent with awareness. With awareness we start to witness more of our thinking and the way that it informs our relationship with ourselves and with others as well as the wider world - we notice our fears and how these limit us and keep us small, stop us saying what we truly want to say or ding what we truly want to do or just being who we truly are at heart.

We are gifted the opportunity then, with awareness, to see where we are reacting from a place of wounding and/or conditioning and/or fear (all of these are interlinked usually) that is no longer helpful in our life, and do something about it to the extent that we can then respond differently next time. It is incredibly liberating when we can put this into play, set beyond our fear and our limited view of things.

All the time the universe is nudging us on. There are gifts left here and there. I found a little white egg clearly fallen from a nest on my walk through the lanes yesterday. It was kind of funny as later that evening I found myself reading up on egg shaped stone circles and then this morning I pulled the cosmos egg card from an oracle pack. Egg is deinfitely then a theme in my life, but I also feel it is a theme for many more of us too.

We are at the beginning of something new. And we need to rest into that a while longer now. We might know where we want to go and what it is we are trying to birth into the world, create then, but now is the time to just let everything be, look after ourselves, keep warm, keep nourished and let the rest take care of itself in divine timing. If we push, if we try to make things happen before the time is right, then we end up with a scrambled egg and while that might taste yummy, its not the creation we were necessarily intending to birth into the world and it won’t have flowed with ease from spirit and the heart.

Enjoy the energy of this new moon. The light is returning, I have seen it shifted the last few days, the sun is higher, visible longer, and the bird are singing a different chorus. The shoots are evident and Imbolc is only just around the corner. We really are in the fragile stages of new beginnings. Be gentle. Be kind. And love yourself as much as you can. The egg will be hatched at just the right time and remember it has the whole of the universe contained within it, just as you do too.

Love Emma x